Addicted to my phone
I’m an extrovert.
I get a lot of energy from people through real-life interactions and with all these lockdowns, I’ve been largely deprived of that. At the same time, I’m lucky to have some close friends that live around me that I can see from time to time, which has kept me going. Mind you, I don’t always need external input; especially since I’ve started to enjoy being alone since last year. But during the moments I feel like I need a friend but don’t have access to them, I have a tendency to turn to my phone/computer. I turn to countless articles/Youtube videos and to social media that I can’t even focus on, especially in those down moments. It’s hard to come out of it. There’s been a lot of those moments. I need to find a better solution to this cause my eyes are getting more tired by the days and the overload of input is taking away my ability to focus.
That’s why I’m currently starting at the wall and writing. I’m trying to develop my own thoughts again, by taking the pen to paper (that’s how this post came about). I’ve spent the past half hour with no input and it’s making me realise that I am able to focus a lot more with everything aside. I’m, 1. just tuning into my own thoughts and 2. feeling a lot more calm as I do this.
putting my thoughts down on paper feels like I’m unloading a carriage of thought
Another thing I’m coming to do is meditating for a longer amount of time per session - say an hour. 1 hour sessions once a day. To keep it a stack, I struggle to stay focused to a task for 1-2 hours. So if I say I’m doing something for 1-2 hours, It’s more, “I do something for 1-2 hours with a million other thoughts in my head”. With the extra time that I have from not having to travel to places for work, etc, I’m going to do these hour sessions.
I’m going to try burn up all the minutes and hours of procrastination that I spend in search of input that makes me end up with less satisfaction with something more real.
I’ll update you on this another time.
Thanks for reading.
Let me know in the comments if you can relate or if you have overcome something like this too!
